When Happy isn’t Happy Enough

Have you ever been depressed? I have, and it sucks. At one point in my life, I was so depressed that my doctor put me on Zoloft because I was breaking down and crying ‘for no reason’ in my office. Zoloft was nothing short of a miracle for me; the crying stopped, other people’s problems weren’t mine, and I felt happy. Had it not been for the side effects, I would probably still be using it today. Fortunately for my own personal growth, and whatever I share that helps you, …

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Accidental Manifestations

All kinds of sucky things manifest when I’m resisting. Monday morning, I manifested a severe tire leak. Normally, I would have simply taken the spare vehicle, but I apparently manifested the heater core leaking radiator fluid into the passenger compartment of said (newly repaired) spare vehicle. I don’t care for the things I manifest when when I’m not being honest with myself about priorities. They’re often expensive and highly inconvenient. I’m sure these things would look like coincidence to some, but situations of this ilk occur so frequently in my …

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Get This Be That

Once upon a time in a land far away, 25 years ago on the other side of Florida, I did something outrageously stupid. In the midst of an emotionally charged argument, a man asked me what I wanted. My exact reply: “I want to get married and be happy! The moment is burned into my brain. We were between his car and the front door of my house. I was in pain because our relationship was falling apart and my lifelong dream of getting married and being happy was slipping …

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The Catastrophic Result of Self Care

Yesterday’s article started the conversation about Self Care, but it certainly didn’t cover everything there is to know. (I’m wondering; is there a topic that could be adequately addressed in a 750-word article?) I had consciously worked to deal with my codependency issues for nearly two decades. Nothing I learned through counseling, pastoral care, CODA, Al-Anon, et al, had as immediate, profound, and lasting effect as my training with Coach for Life. It was there I was introduced to the deeper levels of self-care and began this journey toward proficiency. …

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Cascade of Shift

Life suddenly got a lot simpler since we got back from vacation. New experiences have a magical way of delivering new perspectives, even when I think new perspectives aren’t needed. Spending 11 days with a hormonal 17-year-old gave me new eyes for my own drama. Several times during our vacation, he went to sleep hating me and woke up loving me, or vice versa. The last morning of the trip, he woke up hating me (it had started the night before) and continued hating me until we got on the …

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Permission to Be Happy and Hope

The first time I ‘willingly’ went to a counselor, I was 28 years old. (My aunt had dragged me to a counselor who obviously didn’t know how to handle children after my Dad died. The poor woman kept asking me what I thought, and I finally told her, disgustedly, that if I knew what to think, I wouldn’t be sitting in her office!) At 28, I knew I was crazy. I felt my life ‘circling the drain’ as the same experiences kept happening, faster and faster. I was terrified and …

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Laughing Now

I’ve decided to add a new category to my blog. I really wanted to call it “A Funny Thing Happened on the Way to My Life,” but it takes up a lot of space. I think I’ll shorten it to Laughing Now and see how it goes. The whole concept started a couple of years ago. I remember that something really strange happened and I was very upset at the time. As the Divine would have it, I heard myself saying, “I’ll laugh about this later.” The next thought through …

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Another Beautiful Day

I’m spending a few days at my favorite beach. As I’m trying to remember the last time I went on an actual vacation, I’m having such a hard time coming up with an answer that I’ll just leave it at “too long.” Arriving Sunday, I met up with a dear friend and her two teenagers. The kids and I had an absolute blast playing out in the “deep end” of the ocean while their mom relaxed on the sand. I’m 5’3” and define the “deep end” as where I can …

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