Not New Years Day

I got up this morning, made The Sweetheart’s coffee and lunch, and sent him out the door, just like every other morning. I didn’t even glance at the whiteboard I had meticulously crosshatched with goals and days of the week. Somewhere around 1:15 this afternoon, I was standing in the kitchen, juicing carrots, ginger, and turmeric as my lunch of beans and rice heated on the stove. I was a little in awe of myself. I had already written more words today than I have all week, posted on my …

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Exploring Workaholism through the eyes of my Inner Child

Inner Child work is some of the most frightening work I’ve ever done, simply because it is so very vulnerable. I wouldn’t do it, except for the fact that it is also some of the most revealing, freeing, and cathartic stuff I’ve ever tried, as well as being incredibly easy to do, and fun in the long run. Invariably, what comes out of it surprises me, even though it is me that I’m talking to! If it’s so wonderful, why don’t I do it all the time? It’s the anticipation …

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Shifting Gears and Perspectives

It seems like I have been ignoring or in battle with my body all of my life. Anorexia became my way of life when I was fifteen years old. It didn’t begin with trying to lose weight; it was a control issue. My mother and stepfather wouldn’t let me have any money except lunch money, so I stopped eating to gain control, both emotionally and financially. Quite by accident, I found out that if I didn’t eat breakfast, I wouldn’t be as hungry at lunchtime. Within six months, I was …

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Energy Shifting

As a young girl, I had many dreams and premonitions. It wasn’t that my family discouraged it, but most did not encourage it. When I was 15 years old, I woke up screaming one night. I had had one of ‘those’ dreams, the really vivid, I’m-in-it, brightly colored, full-surround-sound kind of dream. I dreamed that one of my friends from school was drunk and driving a car with three other classmates in it. They were laughing, partying, the music was loud. They were on a tree-lined, back country road. As …

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One Good Turn

As I left the restaurant where I’d met a friend for an early dinner, I noticed a man on the ground in the parking lot, working on the car next to mine. As an American female, I’ve read the warnings and heard the horror stories of things that have happened to women in such situations. For a moment, I thought of getting in my vehicle from the passenger side to avoid any kind of trouble. I did a quick assessment of the situation, determined there was sufficient distance between our …

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Beyond Right and Wrong

I’ve heard that human beings must hear a new concept seven different ways, from seven different people, before they can adopt it. I’d say that’s a pretty good average. Sometimes I’ll take on a new one at first brush. Other times, it takes far more than seven for me to understand. I hired my first counselor twenty years ago. One concept she introduced me to is that nothing, and therefore no one, is all good or bad. I argued this with her. I was certain that I knew people who …

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