Am I Really Type-A?

I’m spending a quite a bit of time laughing at myself lately. It’s a good hobby, raising the endorphins and such. I’m laughing because I keep catching myself in the act of raising my own level of awareness. In case you didn’t know, the primary task of a Life Coach is raising the level of awareness. I’m just going to take a pause right here and acknowledge myself for doing a really great job with myself! Today’s laughter is around my new awareness of what my Type-A behavior might really …

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Nicer to Me

“I can rest when I’m dead!” My mother’s words still ring in my head, a martyr’s call to arms from earliest childhood. Long after she stopped working and started spending every day in her recliner, she was still the most tired and unhappy woman I’ve ever known. No matter how much I think I know about the conditioning and beliefs that were neither healthy nor true, I still find them cropping up in my life. More accurately, I am deeply amazed when they are suddenly resolved. Just as a fish …

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What Are You Waiting For?

I posted something on Facebook last week about lack of money and its relationship to waiting. This visual speaks to a deeper aspect of it for me. I have caught myself waiting “until I’m ready.” It was always one more certification, or degree, or level of experience, or piece of knowledge. As a Life Coach, I often see others doing the same. Something broke in my waiting game when I began watching successful people. They wait, but not for the same things. They wait for their instincts to say “GO!” then …

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Leaning in to let it go

Metamorphosis… What a GRAND word! So FULL of POSSIBILITY!!! The way one thing MAGICALLY becomes another! Such PROMISE! Such HOPE! Such ROMANCE! Such… Such a thing as Metamorphosis requires that thing called CHANGE. And Change, well, that’s a fearsome thing. And change, it doesn’t come free. Change requires a Decision. And Decision requires Courage, and Action, and… And it all looks like it could destroy everything that I hold dear, and my whole self along with it. And, in a way, it does. Change/Metamorphosis destroys what ‘was’ to allow what’s …

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Meditate More, Hurry Less

“Meditate every day for 20 minutes. If you do not have time, meditate for one hour.” ~Zen expression This recommendation confounded me from the beginning. I couldn’t even find 20 minutes to meditate! How could I possibly find an hour??? It seemed so counterintuitive. Perhaps that was what made it so irresistible to me. Things do not survive for centuries if they do not work. Curiosity got the better of me, and I determined to give it a go.

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How to Live and Die

I visited friends in the hospital yesterday. He had severe angina a few days prior and had a few stents put in his heart as a result. They were expecting him to be released later in the day. As I visited, I noticed that he was tired, yet his cantankerous humor was on full display. She was fully supportive and present, her love for him very evident. We enjoyed each others’ company for a time. I excused myself when the nurses came to tend to him. She offered to accompany …

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Beliefs and Marriage Equality

I was asked an interesting question last night. After I made the statement that I used to be very anti-homosexual, a friend told me that she had a hard time believing I had ever held those beliefs. She was unable to find a trace of it in me, for which I expressed silent gratitude. “How does that just disappear in a person?” she asked.

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When Momentum Scares Me

A friend asked me this question yesterday: “Have you ever been absolutely certain of an action to take (feeling inspired to take it, etc) and once the initial step is taken have a sudden feeling of nervousness?” My response was, “Did you see my last Facebook post?” We had a good laugh because we were both facing the same thing. It took me until today to know that it’s not just the two of us; there are many who are questioning themselves. If you’re one of them, I hope you’ll …

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Before lessons grow into swans

I had a total meltdown two days ago. It was precipitated by a situation that came up two weeks ago, so it had been brewing for a while. My Rx4JOY website crashed during a hosting upgrade to a Linux platform. I immediately contacted my designer, only to find out that she had moved on to other things and was no longer available. It just made sense to migrate to a platform that I could manage on my own. There was just one little thing standing in my way. FEAR! I …

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