I Swear

I am intimately familiar with the nuanced flavors of Dial, Zest, Tide, and Palmolive, to name just a few. My mother had used all of them in a vain effort to wash “those dirty words” out of my mouth before the tender age of eight. Even the twenty-mule team of Borax didn’t stand a chance of pulling out the cantankerous roots of my heathen vocabulary. At nineteen, I found myself sitting across the desk from my supervisor in a major retail chain, being lectured on the inappropriateness of a sailor’s …

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Leaning in to let it go

Metamorphosis… What a GRAND word! So FULL of POSSIBILITY!!! The way one thing MAGICALLY becomes another! Such PROMISE! Such HOPE! Such ROMANCE! Such… Such a thing as Metamorphosis requires that thing called CHANGE. And Change, well, that’s a fearsome thing. And change, it doesn’t come free. Change requires a Decision. And Decision requires Courage, and Action, and… And it all looks like it could destroy everything that I hold dear, and my whole self along with it. And, in a way, it does. Change/Metamorphosis destroys what ‘was’ to allow what’s …

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When Momentum Scares Me

A friend asked me this question yesterday: “Have you ever been absolutely certain of an action to take (feeling inspired to take it, etc) and once the initial step is taken have a sudden feeling of nervousness?” My response was, “Did you see my last Facebook post?” We had a good laugh because we were both facing the same thing. It took me until today to know that it’s not just the two of us; there are many who are questioning themselves. If you’re one of them, I hope you’ll …

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We Are What We Eat

Remember the old, “You are what you eat” campaign? It was an attempt to remind people to think about what they put into their bodies. After all, those are the only nutrients bodies have to build from. Back then, I don’t think we comprehended the cellular turnover rates that science has discovered. We were just discovering building blocks back then. And we continue to discover more each day. I believe it’s true that we are what we eat, even beyond the physical. Mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually… I am what I …

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The Shit Cow

I spent part of my life on a dairy farm. I am intimately acquainted with the ways of livestock, the land, and people who are drawn to working them. There are many lessons to be learned from the earth, and from things that dwell close to it. One of the lessons I refer back to most often is The Shit Cow. I understand it’s not the most attractive term, but it’s the one used by dairy farmers. Beef farmers may not use it, but they don’t have to get up …

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