I should take it as a sign that everything is in my favor when the first item rung up at the store is free.
“Free,” said the cashier as she checked the clearance sticker on the cat toy I had impulsively picked up for Buddha, my 15-pound furbaby. “What? No, it’s about 40 cents, isn’t it?” I queried.
I’m probably the only person on the planet who would argue with free.
The clerk was a darling and took the time to show me that the price actually was $0.00 on the register.
Seriously? When does that happen?
Actually, little abundancy synchronicities have been popping up all over the place.
On Saturday, I received a Christmas gift of $300 from one source. On Sunday, I received a gift of $200 from another, as well as new appointments from two clients I hadn’t seen in a while.
Monday evening, I hosted the Sacred Soul Exploration group in my home. That just sent things into a whole new dimension of energy and awareness.
Tuesday morning I woke up feeling like I was in a completely different, yet completely familiar self. It literally felt like I was another person than the one I have been.
As I walked into my living room, rearranged for the previous evening’s party, I realized that I was suddenly ready to let go of so many family traditions.
To clarify, these are not healthy traditions; they are ways of being that are about coping, manipulating, and controlling situations and people.
My father was very comfortable with clutter. His home was clean, but there was endless clutter all around. He presented me with love and acceptance, and I came to associate love, acceptance, and comfort with clutter.
My mother was a stickler for cleanliness, tidiness, and perfection. Nothing was ever good enough for her. She represented criticism, anger, and unhappiness for me. I linked those aspects with the image of a very tidy space.
Little by little, those associations have shifted over time. I knew I had made progress when the act of cleaning my house took on the essence of a Zen meditation.
Nonetheless, I avoided having a tidy home, as it felt like rejecting my father’s love and embracing my mother’s unhappy criticism.
Tuesday morning was an awakening moment. All attachments to the love and criticism, the chaos and control, melted away. There is an underlying importance here; clutter in the home represents clutter in mind, spirit, and emotions. Releasing my lifelong attachment to clutter in my home is also releasing the mental, emotional, and spiritual noise.
As I release clutter and noise, I make room for…
You got it…
Yes, even a clearance cat toy can be a sign that I’m moving in the right direction.
Free is good.